My instructor said today that people come to my school because they are at a crossroads in their lives. At school they learn about themselves and how to navigate their way through this part of their lives. Oh, and they learn massage, too, which is what keeps them grounded and focused while they're figuring out the other stuff.
Obviously, this is true for me. I found Irene's school because I am at a crossroads. I just really had no idea how big the intersection was...
Tuesday 14 December 2010
Tuesday 7 December 2010
Frustration
Today has been frustrating on so many levels. At the top of the list was a home renovation project I've been working on. Today, all I had to do was to hang curtains: put up two rods and hang the curtains. Unfortunately, home improvement projects have a way of never being as simple as they initially appear to be. At least for me. This one luckily didn't require any trips to Home Depot, but something that should have been simple and taken a very short period of time has taken me all day (off and on) -- and the curtains still aren't up yet!
The thing I've noticed is that, despite the many frustrations of the day, I am still in a relatively good mood. And there were no tears. I have no explanation but I will look at this as proof that perhaps, for the time being, I have become a bit more emotionally stable. I'm not confident enough to think that this is a permanent state, but it's certainly a nice change to be able to face a mountain of frustrations and maintain a calm demeanor and a dry eye.
I am hoping that tomorrow will see the successful end of the curtain debacle, preferably without any more setbacks. I don't see any solutions in sight for the other frustrations, but I'm not going to let that get me down. Not today.
The thing I've noticed is that, despite the many frustrations of the day, I am still in a relatively good mood. And there were no tears. I have no explanation but I will look at this as proof that perhaps, for the time being, I have become a bit more emotionally stable. I'm not confident enough to think that this is a permanent state, but it's certainly a nice change to be able to face a mountain of frustrations and maintain a calm demeanor and a dry eye.
I am hoping that tomorrow will see the successful end of the curtain debacle, preferably without any more setbacks. I don't see any solutions in sight for the other frustrations, but I'm not going to let that get me down. Not today.
Thursday 2 December 2010
Negative vs Positive
I've been spending a lot of time today wondering if perhaps there are just too many negatives in my life and not enough positives. Or if maybe I'm just focusing too much on the negatives. In therapy, we seem to focus on the negatives in order to fix them, and while the end goal is positive, it has us concentrating on all those negatives much of the time. I wonder if I've forgotten how to celebrate the positives -- or if there are just so few left that the occasion seldom arises.
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