Decision making has always been difficult for me. If the decision is not blatantly obvious I find it extremely challenging to make up my mind. I make lists of pros and cons, weigh all my options and deliberate but still find it so very hard to actually come to a decision -- and harder still to then act upon said decision.
I wonder if this is related to me avoiding conflict and risk. Or maybe it has to do with an inability to commit.
Most of the time I am able to get by. Oftentimes I leave the decision making up to others, but I'm beginning to think that this is perhaps not the best way to do things. I have become very good at letting life happen to me. While this has turned out fairly well, I think perhaps I would like to start taking a more active role in the process, which would necessitate learning how to make decisions and then, of course, following through on them.
Practice makes progress, they say, and as I am currently debating a few topics with myself, I will no doubt be able to excercise my decision-making ability fairly frequently in the near future. The trouble is that when I actually start making decisions for myself, there will be no one but myself to blame for how things turn out...
... and there is actually nothing wrong with blaming yourself. It is a very healthy thing to do. It makes one reflect and seize opportunities to improve, develop, get better, and ultimately grow. So, make the decisions.
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